Held in His Embrace

lately i've been kinda in the dumps. the past few weeks have been rough, and it felt like everything was just spiraling out of control. it felt like no one cared, no one could understand. i was so frustrated with everything and was literally worn out. 


i questioned why God allowed certain things to happen. i wondered if He cared. and if He did, where was He when my world was seemingly crashing down on me? i even stopped talking to Him because i decided that i really shouldnt bother Him anw. 


because im so terribly good at keeping things to myself, i just began to bottle everything up. the more i did it, the more i wanted to hide from the world. people were driving me nuts. nothing was going right. and of cos it didn't take too long before i hit my breaking point. 


i had so many things running through my mind. i wanted everyone to leave me alone, but at the same time, i felt so lonely. i wanted so bad to just leave this place n run away. but when i was so broken, and cried out, He came to my rescue. 


the loving Father, heard my cries, and in my brokenness, came to meet me and brought me so much comfort. He showed me that He has been there every step of the way. Every time i thought He wasn't there, He was right there, waiting for me to turn to Him and reach out. n that night, i cried my heart out to God, n i knew He understood. He understood everything and i no longer had to hide behind that mask that i put on each day. 


sometimes i can't help but laugh at my own silliness. when i get upset, and frustrated, i forget that i have a dad who loves me anyways. even if i make mistakes and stumble, He's right there waiting to catch me. and no matter what i do, He continually showers me with His love. that's all i need. that's all anyone needs. 


it doesnt matter if your world comes crashing down. He will never leave Your side. 

Who is God?

a little while ago, during one of our prayer group session, we did a little activity which really opened my mind to who God really is. it is rather fun, and not too hard to do at all. 

1. have everyone close their eyes and think of words that describe God

2. at random (or popcorn as Americans like to call it) just say those characteristics out loud

3. open eyes and share which word(s) stood out the most

you will be surprised at the words that describes God. or at least i was. sure u'll have the common answers like love, shelter, amazing, glorious.... but then as u start to dig a little deeper, you hear words like servant, sacred, sensitive, victorious, creative, colorful... there is a long long list if you keep going. 

"SERVANT" left a deep impression on me. it is so easily to see ourselves in that "servant" position but i personally have never thought of God to be a servant, just the one whom we serve. the first image that comes to mind is that of Jesus, washing the feet of His disciples. sometimes when we think of ourselves having to take that role of a servant, we think of all the things we have to "sacrifice", the "service" we have to do for others before we are considered to have a "servant heart".God made the biggest sacrifice when He gave His only Son, to die on the cross for our sins. That is an act far greater than anything we can ever do and it's not about who makes the biggest sacrifice and has the biggest servant heart. it's about how much and what u're willing to sacrifice and serve others before God set the first example and sent Jesus to the cross for our sins. 

many of the words that were mentioned during the activity taught me or reminded me of who God is. it's so easy to forget things we don't often think about. so easy to forget the good and loving Father that He is. 

who is God? can u pick a word to describe him? take a moment to remember all that He is to u and learn more about who He truly is.