lately i've been kinda in the dumps. the past few weeks have been rough, and it felt like everything was just spiraling out of control. it felt like no one cared, no one could understand. i was so frustrated with everything and was literally worn out.
i questioned why God allowed certain things to happen. i wondered if He cared. and if He did, where was He when my world was seemingly crashing down on me? i even stopped talking to Him because i decided that i really shouldnt bother Him anw.
because im so terribly good at keeping things to myself, i just began to bottle everything up. the more i did it, the more i wanted to hide from the world. people were driving me nuts. nothing was going right. and of cos it didn't take too long before i hit my breaking point.
i had so many things running through my mind. i wanted everyone to leave me alone, but at the same time, i felt so lonely. i wanted so bad to just leave this place n run away. but when i was so broken, and cried out, He came to my rescue.
the loving Father, heard my cries, and in my brokenness, came to meet me and brought me so much comfort. He showed me that He has been there every step of the way. Every time i thought He wasn't there, He was right there, waiting for me to turn to Him and reach out. n that night, i cried my heart out to God, n i knew He understood. He understood everything and i no longer had to hide behind that mask that i put on each day.
sometimes i can't help but laugh at my own silliness. when i get upset, and frustrated, i forget that i have a dad who loves me anyways. even if i make mistakes and stumble, He's right there waiting to catch me. and no matter what i do, He continually showers me with His love. that's all i need. that's all anyone needs.
it doesnt matter if your world comes crashing down. He will never leave Your side.
