"I Will Rise"
it was Sunday morning and i was very excited because we were attending the New Life Church, which was in ENGLISH! :) it is a very nice change to be around English speaking people. they asked if we would do an offertory song, and this time, instead of getting our whole group to sing the one Spanish song, 'Montana', that we knew, we decided that we would do the "special music", 'I Will Rise', that Tiffany, Danielle, and i have practiced a few times.
Problem 1. I’m nervous. Always am but I will eventually get over it. sometimes its because i think i'm just not good enough, or that i'm going to mess up because we haven't practiced enough. being in front of a new crowd didn't help. Problem 2. My voice is gone. I don’t know how or why (possibly from screaming at the track meet a week ago) but it was completely gone. i could barely speak, could not even hit the notes in the melody, much less do the high harmony. And it freaked me out. Big time. It was also one of those moments where you just kinda had to wing it so that was our plan.
As worship started, I was frustrated that I couldn’t even sing decently. But as we continued, it seem like my voice was returning, so I calmed down a little. Until I saw one of Dustin’s guitar strings snap. Problem 3. I did not even think of bring my guitar and was going to have to use his. Now I was really freaking out, because I’m going to have to bang out the chords on the keyboard, except I’ve never played this song on the keyboard or practiced on it. i was like "seriously God? you're gonna shove me right out of my comfort zone that isn't all that comfortable to begin with?!" if you don't know, its become a habit that when i sing, i like to hide behind my guitar :P
Throughout the entire sermon, I was freaking out, shaking, and really praying that God would do something because i knew there wasn't anything else that i could do.
The time came for us to sing and I was nervous as heck. Starting out with the verse, I could hear that my voice was still kinda hoarse, shaking and I was afraid of when my high harmony was suppose to come in. I was still debating in my head as we went through the first verse if i should even try.But when we hit the chorus, and right when my harmony was suppose to kick in, i felt like someone gave me a shove off the cliff and the notes just came out of my mouth. It scared me real good. Not only was I not expecting to even hit those notes, they were so pure and sounded way better than I usually would and I knew immediately that God was moving. i felt so pumped i wish i could have just screamed n do a happy dance or something at that moment. haha! :P
After the song, my voice was gone again but I honestly could not care less. I was so thankful that God moved, and there, to me, was a miracle. i'm pretty sure God got a kick out of shoving me completely out of my comfort zone and then show me that as long as He's there, everything will be just fine.
