over the past month, i've been on quite an adventure in terms of travelling, but it's been all on my own. not that i dont like company, planning for one, is a lot easier when it's just one person's schedule to worry about. but just the reasons of my travels have made it only possible for me to go on my own. not that i haven't made any friends along the way, but sometimes i can't help but wish that i had some company.
on the bus ride to Edinburgh earlier this morning, it just really bugged me that i was making this trip on my own. yes, i was staying on and not returning with the group, but i didnt even bother to see if there was anyone i knew that i could have at least spent the day with. leaving home and going to college in another country miles away from home, i've also learned that no matter how good of a 'friendship' you have with someone, distance and tiem difference will change it all. while i've found pretty good people that i'm glad to call 'friends' where ever i've been, its still ever so often a struggle to have a really really good friend that will always be there, no matter what happens.
between pondering in thought and listening to some brooke fraser on my ipod, it was almost as if i could feel God chuckling and giving me a smack on the back of the head saying, "I'm here you silly. I've always been and will always be." it made me smile just because the answer that i've been seraching for has been there all the while. i didn't even really have to look all that hard if i had just been a little brighter :P
i sat in my seat and reflected upon the past 2+ years since i've left home for college. it hasn't been the easiest, but i can't deny that God has indeed been there every step of the way. it has been an incredible journey learning to walk closer to Him and just depend on Him, especially when there's literally no one else. every time i freaked out something wasn't going right, it eventually all worked out perfectly according to His plan. He's opened doors that i never even expected because i treated it all as a joke. but nonetheless, it all worked out.
despite all the changes and moving that has taken place over the past few years, He has been the one thing that remained constant. i still need to work on trusting Him more and more, but He's always there. forgiving and patient, to pick me up every time i fall and help me to keep growing. most of the time, i've found it a lot easier to rant with Him, whethere it's good or bad, because He knows everything and i won't have to keep trying to explain something else to make someone understand y i'm happy or sad.
Jesus is my best friend. and He can be yours too. He is everything you can possibly want in a best friend. faithful, loyal, encouraging, loving, trust worthy, strength, patient....etc. If you ever feel alone, just call out to Him, because He's there. whether you notice it or not.
i'm reminded of an 'old' song.... "Jesus, You are my best friend, and You will always be. Nothing will ever change that."
thank God nothing will ever change that. armed with this reminder of a best friend that i always had, it's off for more adventures of learning and growing! :) a
